starting to feel fat

So, San Diego is still making me work hard for things to go my way.  Got my car towed last week, that was a really fun experience to wake up to, and go through, $350 later.  But, it's a good thing I do not give up without a fight.  Being broke has made it harder to have fun out here, money really is the root of all evil.

But Thanksgiving was fun, I cooked bacon wrapped beans and this really tastey caramel chocolate chip dip :)  All of us out here went over to Sam, Lauren, Amber, and Eliza's and had a pot-luck, beer drinking day of turkey goodness.  The turkey turned out sooooo good thanks to Sam and Emily.  And all ten of us sat around Eliza's closet door propped on two tv boxes, and ate Indian style, classic.  It gave me comfort, since it was my first Thanksgiving away from home, and I even got to eat the turkey wings like I always do!  Mike had to work all day which was sad, I wanted him to be a part of the experience, and by the time he got there I was passssssed out from my turkey coma.  It was a great day, full of friends and good times.

And now I feel, fat!  I have been getting no exercise with my work schedule, and then I just sit at a desk all day at work!  This is not good, I need money so I can join a gym and get motivated like asap.  I can't wait to pay my bills in a week with my first paycheck and not feel so worthless. 

I still don't know if California is really for me, I miss my east coast roots so much.  I'm still testing out my wings I guess.  I want to get richy rich so I can decorate my apartment in shabby chic furniture and home deco from anthropologie, and buy all the jewelry and clothes from the store, and be able to go out to eat, and not worry so much.  I decided to not let money get me down so much in the past week.  While I'm still being frugal, I went out last night (after losing a bet in Yatzi haha) and got Mike a little present for our ONE YEAR on Monday, which I doubt he even knows is our one year.  I feel as though you only live once, and where you can't be stupid with your money (or credit card) you still need to have fun.  I never want to be this poor ever again in this lifetime, I'm going to make it my goal to only go up from this point.  That's today's dream, probably the most important one yet.

I still can't WAIT to go home for Christmas, I just know I'm not going to want to leave to come back!!  Mike will be reason enough though :) Now I'm going to go browse the web for a new book to read since I finished my last one (Meg Cabot's Queen of Babble in the City), chow!

the Master calls a butterfy

Ok, so I have been really lazy with this blog, time to get back on track. Just incase you were wondering, I made it to San Diego, CALIFORN-I-AA!! Leaving home was pretty hard.  My best friends came over and hung out with me the few days that I was packing before I headed out.  Marben, Jess, Byrd, Bear, Justin, and Rose came over the one night I invited them all over to my little party, and what really touched my heart, is that with all their busy schedules, they called me the day before I left and all of them except for Rose came over to hang out one more time :) They are truely my bestest friends, and Im so lucky to have that many BEST friends! It made me not want to leave lol.  The next day, with a car fully packed to the brim, Mike came over to my house to meet me and then I gave my Mom and Pops (and Roxygirl!) a big ole' hug, and headed off.  Byrd made me some mixed cds for my ride that were AWESOME! It was so funny because the first song that came on was "My Girl" and I started balling my eyes out as a turned out of my driveway...I feeling I will never forget.  The ride across the country was pretty mind-blowing. In five days I drove through Virginia, Tennessee, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Texas, New Mexico, Arizona, and finially Cali.  I got to see the GRAND CANYON and it is truely one of the worlds wonders.   Mike and I moved in to our cute little apartment on Pacific Beach Drive on November 3, 2009 :)  Finding a job was reeeeallly tough and frustrating for me, but I did it!  For now at least, I have an administrative assisstant position at Cassidy's Massage Clinic, and get free massages by the therapists so that I can give them good client recommendations! Talk about benefits! So for now thats keeping me very busy Monday through Saturday from 8:30am-4:30pm.. no sunshine for me, boo :(  But hopefully I will be out of debt soon, and perhaps find a higher paying job that I enjoy.  I got a plane ticket home for Christmas that I am SOOOO excited about and I plan on hanging out with my friends and family, boozin it up every minute :) 

Ok, I guess its time to think of a dream of mine..as soon as the water gets warmer out here (because believe it or not its freezing) I am overcoming my fear of the ocean, and learning how to surf!

I'll end this super long post with a quote my mom texted me while I was about to give up on job hunting, not thinking I was going to be able to afford to live out here, it is a great life quote:
“What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.”

--Richard Bach, Illusion

Be the butterfly!! :) Later